My Beloved
I debated about posting this all day today. I talk about my little A on this blog and don’t really mention my other kids. Ok well you all know Princess Bean. I rarely if ever mention my boys or my oldest daughter. I don’t mention my boys mostly because they are typical boys. I don’t want to bore everyone with honor roll announcements and stories of worms in my ice cubes. I don’t talk about my oldest daughter for a very different reason. I don’t talk about her because it hurts. For some reason tonight I just have to.
April 26 1998 my M was born. She was 4 months too early. Labor was brought on by a car accident and could not be stopped. She was born at 11:53pm. I held my sweet girl and sang to her softly for what seemed like an eternity. Sadly it was a lifetime. Her lifetime. She died in my arms 7 minutes later. It might have been sooner but that is when I let the doctors check. That was all the time I had with my first born girl. It wasn’t nearly long enough. I wanted more. I still want more. She is a part of me and always will be.
I love you my sweet girl. One day we will be together again. Until them I will sing you a song everynight
Aborted Mother 
justenjoyhim said,
April 27, 2008 at 7:57 pm
Oh Aislin, I am so very sorry. I’m just sorry. *hugs* to you. You’ve endured far too many losses in regards to your children.
JadedTears said,
April 28, 2008 at 10:38 am
Even tho I cracked up on the “worms in my icecubes” the rest just breaks my heart. Your pain is deep and my heart goes out to you. Love U forever my cosmic sis.
HeatherRainbow said,
April 29, 2008 at 12:18 am
((hugs))