March 4, 2009 at 12:00 pm (adoption) (, , , , , , , )

I know you’ve all missed me terribly. Can’t live without me and all that jazz. In all seriuosness I want to that those of you that emailed me. It really meant a lot to me. I also have to say I am sorry. I consider some of those brave souls in cyberland to be very dear friends. I deeply value those friendships. I wouldn’t have survived without them. However, I have been a bad friend. I pulled the very same disappearing act that I complained about. I am so very sorry M, T, L and T. I hope you can forgive me.

Now on to the why of it all. Plain and simple the visit fucked me up. Seeing my beautiful girl for a couple hours and then watching her leave again tore me up in new ways. Ways I didn’t expect or prepare for. The depression kicked in and I stayed away one day. Then it turned into one week and so on. When I finally realized what I was doing I was met with another roadblock.

I crashed my dumb computer. Just don’t tell Hedge cause I let him believe he did it with one of his games. So shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Anyway, I will be back to write about the “joy” of adoption in the natural family. Call me. Email me. Comment. Know that I love you guys so very much


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